Summer Ends

Yesterday marked the end of Summer
Sky was covered with darkness
Thunder and Lighting danced until the clouds cried


I was stuck at work, and then I knew
I am letting go of the summer happiness
Farewell my dear summer habit


A new season, a new life, a new beginning
Old habit dies hard but I will race forward
A new me shall breathe and live

Thank you for the wonderful memories
Dear summer I shall not forget
The love I felt and the sadness you left

Habit

This scene is a reminder how you made my island stay great.  I can still remember how the scorching sun burning my skin when I step in that island.  The campsite was too far, no shades of anything to hide from.  I had to two bags with me, pants too wet and too heavy, I wanted to cry out to the boatman and asked to go back with them.  But I already made the decision, I had to stay and give this island a chance to redeem itself.  So later that afternoon, I got bored with no one to talk to, nothing to do, checked my phone if my data is working.  Heaven must be on my side  because viola I got a signal weak as it may be but still I can send you messages and I can read yours.  From there I kept to myself and just exchanged funny messages until I had to stop and socialize. 

It's now a month since that day, we are still having the same fun time together though virtual as it may be but it what was supposed to be a way to ease my boredom is now a habit.  A habit that is  now making its hard to break.  I am starting to miss you or the funny faces you keep sending me. I am got worried when no messages arrives or you'd tell me you are again stuck in one of those cargoes.  I didn't know when I had this feeling of missing you nor did I know when did I start to care but all I know is that now I know I am comfortable taking a selfie just so I could send you how stressed I am or how happy I am.  I don't want to dream that this will last or that there will be a future for us but all  I know is that for once I am happy, and you make me happy.  Can I have a little extension of this happiness at least just once? I know it's hard to break a habit but I am sure I will get to that but right now let you be a habit that brings happiness to my heart.

I fear

I fear I am falling
I know I should not
But do I fight this
and stop my heart from beating?


I fear I am doomed
If I let you in
Will you care
or Will you be like the others?

Have I gone too far?
Too far to go back
Too late to stop?
Nothin else then but forward?

I fear I love you
I fear I care too much
I fear I my heart will break
Another cross to bear....